My mother never packed lunches for me to take to school when I was growing up. I'd sit and stare down at my knees while the other children ate their sandwiches, my stomach empty and rumbling. As soon as I'd get home in the afternoon, I filled my belly with bread and butter, all that I could find to eat in my mother's messy kitchen. When I was a child, Dunlop dinners around the kitchen table were hardly nourishing. Mealtimes were brief and uncomfortable. My parents only ever fought in front of Joanie and me, as though they'd needed our audience to discuss their private matters. Our mother would whine and our father would groan, throw his fork across the table, eye his Smith & Wesson, which lay next to his plate. If Joanie or I fussed, Mom would whip a rag at the floor to make a popping sound, sudden and loud, like lightning, like a firecracker. I don't remember what they were always arguing about. I'd just chew my food fast and bring my plate to the sink and run up the stairs.